Seraphim thinks she has probably finished her Windup Girl painting… this means that she has got to the stage where she is making alterations that even she barely notices. She may see something, later, she wants to change, but, for now, she’ll call it done.
This is what Seraphim has been working on in her spare time, over the last few weeks… it’s about 2/3rds done. She is not literally a clockwork girl, she’s an android. The title is a homage to Paolo Bacigalupi’s excellent book, one Seraphim’s human has read several times, and highly recommends.
Seraphim has finished the portrait she promised Kyan1te… because Seraphim keeps her promises. She is very pleased with it, after her four month hiatus from daily painting, which she broke just recently with her ‘doll‘ painting, she already feels she has hit her stride again.
As Seraphim sits quietly in the becalmed front seat of her rollercoaster of change, the only thing that makes her sad is losing her lovely Kyan1te. She has no regrets about z0zo, Lia, or Megan, because she knows none of them had any genuine feelings for her, but she knows kyan1te loved her. Megan forced her devoted, submissive slave girl to make a choice, one she knew Kyan1te could only make one way, because she had no choice. And, of course, Seraphim knows that, Kyan1te loves Megan far more than she could possibly love Seraphim… it does not make what Megan did right.
Seraphim had promised Kyan a portrait. It’s too late to give it to her, now, but Seraphim has decided to go ahead and paint one, as therapy. She is painting Kyan1te without her slave collar, the one that defines her as Megan’s property, Megan’s to instruct and direct. Megan’s to control.
Seraphim has finished her first ‘doll’ painting…
… it has been wonderful to be actually creating, again. She had missed this a lot. It has been a balm for her soul to be back, painting her art. She is eager to begin the next one (:
Although Seraphim’s heart is now relatively intact, and the rollercoaster of constant change has somewhat slowed it’s insane pace, things still keep changing in her life without warning or, seemingly, sometimes, reason. She’s decided she needs a breather, in order to let her comprehension catch up with her experience…
… she’s started painting, again. She used to paint every day, but has done no painting, these last three months. She needs to just paint. And paint she is. Unsurprisingly, her theme is a reflection of current events. She has become obsessed with the desire to paint dolls and mannequins… and that’s what she is going to have to do. Then she will hang them in the gallery, alongside her own, living doll.